back on the Chain Gang

You know that little voice in your head, the one that tells you to keep going to push on and not to give up? 
Well sometimes its not just in your head. 

Like this morning, the little voice in my head said "that's your alarm" but really it was Kyle's voice telling me that it was 5 am.  And then when I was on the treadmill walking, warming up and the little voice that should say "get going" says "put on Brittney and get going".  Clearly that was not the voice inside my head, since I was listening to Dave Matthews Band and would not even if threatened voluntarily put Brittney Spears on my iPod.  It was Lesley telling me that I needed to start running. 

You see last week I felt a little sore and a little like I was getting a cold and running seemed so far away.  A different little voice in my head said "eat a piece of cake"  and "have a can of coke" and I listened.  It's easier to listen to that voice than it is to listen to the one telling me to push harder and eat my veggies.  I am not a big cake person but I think there is something inside all of us that says "you better eat that cake before it goes bad"  that somehow wasting cake is a terrible sin.  Or that "you might as well drink that can of Coke" because "it's only 110 calories", you run that off all the time - the treadmill tells you so. 

Some times I think that the more you have to lose the easier it is to just say "oh I'll stay in instead of working out, and eat that Quarter pounder with Cheese".  Easier because I know that, well, a quarter pound is just a fraction of what I have to work off.  But I have to always remember that if I don't stop with the cake, Coke and Quarter pounders I will never get to where I am going.  I don't want to just run in place, I want to run to my destination!  Which is why this week was a lesson about how Diet AND Exercise go together. 

   ...now, I'm gonna throw out those Olive Garden breadsticks before I eat them.  I'll toss what's left of the cupcakes while I'm at it.  :(